Autism Contemplation

what if i extend the business?

2010-02-15T11:52:00.000+07:00

SYAA by giegielalalala featuring Roberto Cavalli shoes

I've Never Been As Excited As Now

2010-02-02T05:58:00.002+07:00

Happy through anything I have right now, I guess I am,,,

I'm really excited to run my 2 shops, to study (God, seldom thing! Alhamdulillaah), to be the Head of R&D division,,,to be with or without my friend,,,to be with my bf,,,even to be at home and spend time with my family :)

Btw, February 10th is Ridzki's bday,,,^^
.........hmmmm........what would it be...............

and sista, if u wanna know how to feel like i feel right now,,,i think i kinda know the answer (beside of course there is always be an X factor)...

the answer is,,,

i'm happy because i'm doing anything that makes me happy.

so what if the condition not makes u happy?

oh, yeah. If u know me well,,then u know that the things that i've mentioned above has made me feel bad, sad, and stressed. But then I tried to accept and love it, find the good things behind it,,and be grateful to the God Almighty whatever u have in this life....i'm sure u have heard the saying :

U can't have anything you love, so just try to love anything u have :)

believe me, it works.

next edition : February 5th :)

2010-02-02T05:53:00.001+07:00

zyskuxena by giegielalalala featuring Givenchy jewelry

ga sabar besok mw upload...

2009-12-26T18:04:00.000+07:00

ZX by

Essay for selection of ITB'S candidate for HNMUN 2010

2009-12-02T23:25:00.002+07:00

Low Paid Migrant Workers
Living on the Edge

Migrant worker refers to people moving from their home country to another to find employment. There are two kinds of migrant workers. First, professional migrant workers, that is people who have skills in particular occupations required by the host country, have recent skilled work experience, have good English and maybe also other language ability, and have completed the other qualifications. The professional migrant workers are high-paid and appreciated both in the home and host country because of their skills and earnings. Second, the low paid migrant workers, who usually work in certain work areas with a relatively low wages, for example, agricultural fields, maid, construction workers, industrial labor, waiter or waitress, and other public sectors. However, the wages promised to them still considered much higher than if they work in the same position in their home country. Among the two kinds of migrant workers, the second one has brought global issues that should be concerned by the world society.

The background of people become low paid migrant workers is the condition in their home country. They come from developing economic, conflicting, or war countries, where the number of people living below the poverty line is keep increasing and job scarcity everywhere. They are forced to seek job opportunities abroad because they think nothing that they can do that could bring enough money if they stay in their home country. There are also pull factors that encourage them to become migrant workers which is the emergence of newly industrialized countries, such as Singapore, Malaysia, Hong Kong, and Taiwan. Workers from lower economic countries such as Indonesia, Philippines, and other South East Asia country are fulfilling the demand for domestic jobs. As we know, the labor supplies in such countries already reach surplus level which they cannot provide the citizen with enough job opportunity.

ILO’s survey about migrant workers in 1997 found that 80 million people are employed out of their country, legal or illegally. They’re come from Africa (20 Million), North America (17 million), Central and South America (12 million), Asia (7 million), the Middle East (9 million), and Europe (30 million). Note that from the developing country such as those in Africa and Asia, the number mostly present low-paid migrant workers. In Asia, Philippines, Indonesia, Myanmar, Afghanistan, Sri Lanka, Thailand, and Vietnam, are the biggest sender of migrant workers. Now, the total amount is being doubled which is approximately reach 192 million. Indonesia itself now has sent 6.5 million of migrant workers.

According to IMF, for most developing countries, the income earned from migrant workers becomes one of the main sources of foreign exchange, Foreign Direct Investment, and flow of individual capital. In 1997, the International Monetary Fund calculate that migrant workers' earning sent back to the home countries accounted for 77 billion dollars, second only to world petroleum exports in international trade monetary flows. In brief, they have contributed a lot to their national economy.

In the other hand, although the sending and the receiving country both really need the migrant workers for the development of each country, they still couldn’t guarantee the protection of the migrant workers’ rights, including the payment, social life, or even with basic human rights laws. For example, between 30% and 40% of Indonesian contract workers in Saudi Arabia, especially women, have been sexually harassed, while 30% do not get their salaries on time and have ever been tortured.

Since the first time people are recruited to be migrant workers, they already taking risks if they face not responsible elements, for instance, an illegal agent. The workers first meet the agent in their village, and because of lack of information about the recruitment process, they are not aware if the agent is an illegal one. These agents did not received regular payment but working on commission based. After they are ready to be sent, the illegal agent provides the migrant workers false travel document. When they’re arrived at the host country, the unfortunate one will be caught by the immigration officers, taken to jail, and then after their guilt are proven, they will be deported to the home country. Moreover, many Indonesian Migrant Workers that have been deported to Indonesia from Malaysia admitted that they often have been whipped and trampled by the prison officers. Legal migrant workers in Asia should not pay administrative and training program, as their incoming wages would be deducted. But those illegal agents charged them before their departure to the host country. This is not only happened in Indonesia or South East Asia, but according to the UN, between 300,000 to 600,000 women are smuggled each year into the European Union and certain Central European countries. The problem is also widespread in Africa and Latin America.

It doesn’t mean that the legal migrant workers or them who slipped off from the immigration officers are already save. The migrant workers continuously became subject of discriminative immigration law, regulation, and social treatment. There is a tendency for some employers in every host country that people whose color, physical appearances, dress, accent or religion are different from the majority in the host country are often subjected to physical violence and other violations of their rights, despite of their legal status. Their working hour are often excessive (more than 12 hour per day), paid in a minimum wages, or even don’t be paid at all. When the workers are in abusive work condition, the illegal agents refuse to help them to find a new employer. The legal ones, sometimes also lose contact with the migrant workers so they can’t help anything. Furthermore, the employers also keep the worker’s passport, working visa, and private belonging so that they can’t escape because it would end as being illegal worker and deportation. The employers, agent, and even the local government defend that those practices aimed to protect their house, family privacy, and workers’ own safety.

The policy in several receiving countries also prevents migrant workers to have their reproductive, marriage and sexual rights. Some of the Indonesian Migrant Workers who had pregnancy during contract only have two choices given, abortion or remain working. In reality, abortion is impossible in Saudi Arabia, even on rape pregnancy case. Because the migrant workers want to stay and remain working, they are forced to go through unsafe or illegal abortion. Another example, Singapore government also banned the migrant workers to marry Singaporean.

Not only the workers who exposed to the problem. The host country also accuse workers of bringing them social, economic, and security problem. According to the International Organization for migration (IOM) migrants "are more and more targeted as the scapegoats for all manner of domestic problems facing societies today, particularly unemployment, crime, drugs, even terrorism." In the other hand, the citizen in the home country would be very mad when they heard that their fellow countryman was treated unwell abroad. In Indonesia and Malaysia’s case, this is also one thing that tapered each cynicism to another. Of course not all of Indonesian Migrant Workers do crime and not all of the Malaysian employers torture the workers, but this problem has bring a totem-pro-parte situation which ruined each country’s image.

All of problem mentioned above showed us that the issue are like a tip of an iceberg, that the real problems inside are much more complex with many more stakeholders in it compared to media publication that we saw everyday. To handle these issues, government, ILO, NGO’s, and society themselves should make a resolution that could be implemented soon, but not to forget the long term solution that could bring permanent effect to the condition of migrant workers everywhere in the future.

First, the home country should be courageous to take their low-paid migrant workers home if the host country is considered still don’t be able to treat the workers decently. Of course this should be implemented according to valid statistic that shows the number of bad treatments exposed to the migrant workers from year to year because it shows that there is no effort from the host country to improve the working condition for migrant workers placed there. For the host country, it is already a good step to tighten the immigration control and to deport illegal workers, but surely without torture. Go along with it, the government should increase the amount of job opportunity inside the country and also optimize the amount of workers sent to the other destination country that has a good track record.

Second, the government needs to set higher requirements for people who want to be migrant workers, especially on level of education, work experiences, language ability, and other skill related to the job in the host country. The migrant workers should also become well informed on their rights as worker. In the popular host country like Malaysia and Singapore, the workers from Philippines and Thailand get better treatment from the employer and society because of their education level, English ability, and also the over-all better image than Indonesian workers have. Every host countries are also better to have their own standard and recheck the migrant workers’ qualification because it will prevent disappointment from the employers when they meet the workers. If it’s proven that the migrant workers couldn’t fulfill the qualification, they reserve the right to whether send the workers home or directly put the workers in the training center.

Training centre in the host country, which is a place to educate and prepare the migrant workers with the new culture, traditions, society, and additional skill needed before they are reconciled with their employers and involved in the new place, should be a truly education centre that has a decent facilities. In the reality now, some of the Indonesian Migrant Workers reported that the condition in the training centers in Malaysia and Singapore are like a jail, lack of food, no-running water, with verbal and physical abuses from the training employee. There is one good example, the Ministry of Labor and Social Affairs of Germany supports the teaching of the German language to migrant workers through the intermediary of the association "German for Foreign Workers". Since the establishment of this society in 1974, over 1.2 million foreigners have benefited from such courses in Germany. Since a decent and educative training centre can bring a significant effect to both the workers and employers’ satisfaction, the establishment should be initiated by diplomatic approach and negotiation among the sending and receiving countries.

Next, to prevent employers that still hold the workers after the contract is over, the host country should set in mind and make regulation about the status of the migrant workers which is of course temporary. Countries which view migrants as temporary workers tend to adopt social policies which encourage as many migrants as possible to return to their home countries after completing their work period. We can see one perfect example, Germany again, which does not permit migrants for permanent settlement on entry, and devotes much of its social policy objectives to encouraging voluntary repatriation through the institution of the Coordinating Agency for Promoting the Reintegration of Foreign Workers. Germany participates in a number of bilateral agreements with sending countries, including Greece, Italy, Portugal, and Spain, which aim to improve migrants' chance to get a qualification which will be appreciated and useful in their home country.

The home country’s together with the agencies and NGO’s should continually monitor each legal worker and not to lose contact with them. It’s should be normal if the workers have their own mobile phone and time out of work to socialize. It is also should be normal for the agent to visit maybe routinely or randomly migrant workers just to see their condition. In many major migrant receiving countries in Europe, there are also liaison service between migrant communities and the national authorities. These organizations also provide advice to the government on formulation and implementation of social policy on migration and in some cases can make suggestions for the improvement of related legislation. To take an example, in Norway, a liaison committee was established in 1984 to act as a link between migrants and the national authorities. Those facilities will make the workers feel protected and not alone.

From the law aspect, until now the migrant workers are excluding from the definition of “worker”, so they were not subject to government regulations of minimum wage, working hours, and day off or paid holiday. It happened both in the home and host countries. However, protection of workers’ rights have been declared in many international convention, such as Universal Declaration of Human Rights, The International Covenant on Economic, Social, and Cultural Rights, core convention of the ILO, and The United Nations Convention on the Protection of the Rights of all Migrant Workers and Member of Their Families. The last convention already take into account all the prior convention. The Convention does not create new rights for migrants but aims at guaranteeing equality of treatment, and the same working conditions for both migrants and nationals. The Convention based on the fundamental notion that the migrants should have access to a minimum degree of protection. The Convention declared that legal migrants have the legitimacy to claim more rights than undocumented migrants, but it also stresses that illegal migrants must have their basic human rights respected, like all human beings. The following countries that have ratified the Convention as of are Argentina, Algeria, Azerbaijan, Belize, Bolivia, Bosnia and Herzegovina, Burkina Faso, Cape Verde, Chile, Colombia, East Timor, Ecuador, Egypt, El Salvador, Ghana, Guatemala, Guinea, Honduras, Kyrgyzstan, Lesotho, Libya, Mali, Mauritania, Mexico, Morocco, Nicaragua, Peru, Philippines, Senegal, Seychelles, Sri Lanka, Syria, Tajikistan, Turkey, Uganda, Uruguay, Bangladesh, Comoros, Guinea-Bissau, Paraguay, Sao Tome and Principe, Sierra Leone, Togo, Cambodia, Gabon, Indonesia, Liberia, Serbia and Montenegro. Unfortunately, neither western migrant-receiving state nor other important receiving countries, such as Australia, Arab states of the Persian Gulf, Malaysia, and Singapore have ratified the Convention. It appears that the recognition of qualifications obtained abroad is still far from universally guaranteed. To reduce the number of mistreatment of migrant workers in the host countries, UN, especially ILO and Human Rights Watch should encourage those destination countries to ratify the convention. If law enforcement applied, the existence of migrant workers would bring an optimum benefit not only to individual, but also to the community and country.

In summary, the situation of migrant workers nowadays has been deviated from the original purpose which is “to develop and utilize all possibilities of employment and for this purpose to facilitate the international distribution of manpower and in particular the movement of manpower from countries which have a surplus of manpower to those countries that have a deficiency”. The migrant workers now often become the modern form of slavery that their basic human rights not appreciated at all. All stakeholder related in this issue should take part in the effort to solve the problem, from the beginning process until the time the workers should back to their country. For the home country, workers’ education standard, the taking back of the workers from problematic country, and continually monitor the workers abroad could be alternative solutions. Besides that, in the host country, the standard also should exist to prevent unqualified workers, a decent and educative training center should be established to help the workers at work and mingle in the new society, and there also NGO’s to help link the workers with national authorities. Above all that, laws protecting the workers right should universally guaranteed, so the receiving country, for the sake of human rights, should also ratify the he United Nations Convention on the Protection of the Rights of all Migrant Workers and Member of Their Families.

Zysku Xena

2009-12-02T04:50:00.000+07:00

Zysku Xena by giegielalalala

we sell them

2009-11-30T20:38:00.003+07:00

Essay yang tidak terkirim..

2009-11-30T16:46:00.002+07:00

What Can I do to Create an Environmental-Friendly Society?

Everybody knows that we are living in a global environmental crisis consists of large scale pollution, global warming, poverty, and almost-extinction, or even already-extinction of thousands species of animal. The causes are clear: human’s selfish lifestyle, which ignore the nature laws and the future of their inheritance. Me, as a human, especially a college student, and more specific: a Bandung Institute of Technology student (which said to be the number one university in my country) then definitely have a responsibility to live my life more environmentally friendly and persuade others to do so.

Until now, I’ve done several things to change my past-unhealthy-lifestyle and, although I’m not an environment activist and I’m not joined in any environmental organization, I’ve tried to influence others directly and indirectly to increase their awareness to the issue. The first point, which is about changing my lifestyle, are very simple things to do. For instance, I’m not using AC, reduce consumption of frozen food, choose walk instead of riding a car to go to campus, reduce using of tissue (and substitute it with napkin), using both sides of papers, bring my own mineral water instead of buying mineral water in plastic bottle, live more economic by limiting my expenses, did not waste plastic bag/packaging so that I can use them again, saving electrical energy by turn the lamp, television, laptop, radio tape, power off when not in use, use refillable cartridge printer, refuse brochures, catalogues, and pamphlets that usually given when we strolling at mall or any public places (because I know I wouldn’t be that interesting to its content and the brochures will just adding more garbage to our environment), do my hobby to make scrap books and tiny note books from re-used paper and magazine, regularly donate my used clothes and shoes, and if it is possible, my favorite is to re-design my old clothes to be more unique and up to date.

Now, for the second point, which is about persuade others, I think by consistently showing others that you care about the environment issue and improving your lifestyle, sooner or later people around you will be inspired and hopefully will do the same thing as you do. Besides that, in organization that I joined now (ITB Economic & Capital Market Study and Investment Group), I’m the Co-Manager of IDX Corner division and one of my responsibilities is to manage inventories and our headquarters. When we did the routine room cleaning-up, I always remembered my staff to collect used paper and any other used things. Then, we gave those papers to U-Green (ITB student environmental organization) to be recycled, and now my department student organization is preparing for new student orientation and in the end of the event, we will challenge them to make a social event, and I recommend the committee to widen the perception of ‘social’ to also include environmental event. Another example is supporting the event ‘Earth Hour’ in March 28^th 2009 from 08.30-09.30 pm to turn off any electrical source by spread the publication of the issue besides of course turn the power off at that time.

Furthermore, I have some dreams for my society, especially my university. Honestly, I feel so ashamed that my university is still much more far away from ‘Green University’. The trash bin only divided into 2 which are for organic and non-organic garbage, and ironically, I often see wrong kind of garbage dumped in any trash bin. Did the student not understand what the meaning of organic and non-organic? Of course they’d understand. The problems are their lack of awareness and although they’d care, they know that the garbage truck will still mix up the garbage again when they put the garbage to their truck. Another example is the rest rooms and canteens are dirty. I envy US’s school, which I read from the internet that 250 green school projects are slated to begin in Ohio in the next two years, new schools in Chicago will be built green and New Orleans is rebuilding public schools green following the disaster of Hurricane Katrina. Moreover, the curriculum here doesn’t support us to increase our concern to environment issue, I only have 4 credits (from 144 credits that I should take) lessons about environmental education, and those lessons are so theoretic that the students may not absorb the core things about the issue. There have already been a few environmental events but they’re lack of publication, and some are just music event + campaign without any follow up. Although now I can’t do something significant to change that yet, I hope what I’ve done can make a little improvement. I’m dreaming of living and studying in a place where the people have a priority to live healthy and environmentally friendly, where I cannot see garbage dumped in wrong place, clean restrooms and canteens, a lot of trees, and economically using energy. I hope someday ITB can be a Green University and be the good example for the society.

“Whatever you do may seem insignificant but it is most important that you do it”

Mahatma Gandhi

Essay Diri buat LKO...hahaha...labil...

2009-11-30T16:23:00.001+07:00

Dibuat tanggal 8 Maret 2009.

Anggi Maulida. Dinamai Anggi karena ayahnya bernama Angga, dan dinamai Maulida karena lahir pada hari Maulid Nabi. Saya lahir pada tanggal 1 Oktober 1990, yang juga merupakan Hari Kesaktian Pancasila. Kadang saya iri dengan teman-teman yang namanya bagus-bagus, aneh-aneh, dan memiliki arti yang sangat-sangat penuh doa dan harapan (kelihatan banget orang tuanya mikir waktu mau ngasih nama anaknya), sampai-sampai waktu SD saya pernah marah pada Papa saya karena saya bilang nama saya jelek dan ngga meaning. Tapi sekarang saya sadar, walau nama saya sangat simple dan sampai saat ini saya belum menemukan arti dari Anggi (I’ve googled it several times), saya dinamai Anggi karena pasti karena Papa sangat sayang saya dan lahir pada tanggal yang sama dengan Rasulullah merupakan doa tersendiri agar saya diberikan kemuliaan. Bagaimanapun, saya tetap kecewa karena saat saya men-search nama Anggi Maulida di Facebook ada beberapa account dengan nama yang sama.

Sekarang saya hidup bersama sebuah keluarga yang, Alhamdulillah, bahagia. Kenapa sekarang? Karena menurut memori yang masih terekam di kepala saya, my family has been in an unhappy situation. Padahal waktu itu, keadaan ekonomi keluarga kami jauh lebih baik dari sekarang. Kebahagiaan ini datang, menurut saya setelah adik saya yang paling kecil lahir. Saya mempunyai dua orang adik, yang pertama adalah laki-laki dan sekarang berumur hampir 17 tahun sedangkan adik saya yang kedua perempuan dan kini baru berumur hampir 3 tahun. Kedatangan seorang malaikat kecil di keluarga ini sungguh merupakan anugrah yang luar biasa. This shows us that, there’s another mean to buy happiness, not only money.

My Childhood

Saya mulai masuk playgroup umur 2.5 tahun dan sempat TK tiga kali. Selain karena umur saya yang masih kecil sehingga belum boleh masuk SD, rumah saya kerap kali berpindah-pindah sehingga pindah TK juga. Jalan Bali, Antapani, Cikutra, Jalan Sinom, Jalan Mijil, Jalan Jakarta, Cigadung Selatan, Akuntansi no. 16, dan sekarang Akuntansi no.3 adalah sederetan tempat di mana saya pernah tinggal. Buat saya dan keluarga saya, pindah rumah adalah hal yang sangat lumrah. Akan tetapi, keluarga kami tidak pernah tinggal di kota lain selain di Bandung.

Kata Papa dan Mama, waktu kecil saya adalah anak yang penurut dan tidak rewel. Lebih tepatnya ‘nerimo’ kalau kata orang Jawa. Berbeda sekali dengan saya waktu SMP dan SMA ^^. Hal lain yang menjadi ciri khas saya waktu kecil adalah saya senang sekali sepatu merah, apalagi dari bahan patent. Entah berapa pasang red patent shoes yang saya punya ketika masih TK dan SD. Rambut saya panjang dan ikal, tapi ketika naik kelas 2 SD guru saya menyuruh saya memotong rambut saya dan sejak itu rambut saya tidak pernah sepanjang itu lagi.

Mulai kelas 2 SD tiba-tiba (seriously, It was come suddenly) saya mulai menjadi anak yang berprestasi. Mendapat ranking 1 hampir si tiap caturwulan (iya, dulu usumnya cawu—caturwulan) dan sering juara di lomba-lomba internal sekolah maupun diluar. Mulai dari lomba MTQ, busana muslim, pidato, menggambar, dll. Walaupun begitu, saya adalah anak yang cukup menyebalkan. Anak lain bilang saya sombong dan kokolot begog. Tapi untungnya saya masih mempunyai sahabat dekat, kami biasa main berlima : saya, Lysa, Mila, Febi, dan Tika. Hingga kini kami masih berhubungan walau hanya lewat Facebook, kecuali Tika yang sejak lulus SD sudah di luar kota dan tidak pernah ada kabarnya lagi.

My ABG-hood

Lulus SD, saya berhasil lulus test ke SMP 5 Bandung. Di sana, saya lulus test lagi hingga bisa mengikuti program akselerasi. Di sini, sifat jelek saya makin terasah. Saya jadi makin sombong, makin kokolot begog, dan makin tidak bisa menyesuaikan diri. Kelas kami ditempatkan di lantai 3 di mana tidak ada kelas lain dan kami hanya ber-20. Ditambah lagi saya tidak bisa menyalurkan minat dan bakat saya. Siklus sekolah selama 2 tahun menyebabkan murid akselerasi tidak bisa menjadi pengurus OSIS dan organisasi lainnya, juga sulit untuk ikut les sana sini karena banyak materi yang harus dikejar.

Kehidupan akademis saya cukup baik, walau tidak lagi ranking 1 masih menduduki 3 besar. Namun, ketika UAN saya, teman-teman, dan keluarga agak kaget karena ternyata nilai saya tidak begitu bagus. Akhirnya saya masuk ke SMA 8 Bandung, bukan SMA 3 seperti kebanyakan teman saya yang lain. Nah, disinilah saya merasa Tuhan sangat sayang sama saya. Di SMA 8, saya masuk kelas yang sangat kompak dan penuh orang yang sayang dengan teman-temannya. Di sini, pertama kali dalam hidup saya, saya sadar bahwa saya harus berubah. Teman-teman kelas X-4 itulah yang menyadarkan saya, dan membantu saya untuk berubah sedikit demi sedikit.

Naik kelas 2, orang tua saya meyuruh saya mutasi ke SMA 3 Bandung. Kata mereka, ini demi masa depan, kalau mau masuk ITB susah kalau tidak di SMA 3. Dengan berat hati pada awalnya, saya pun menurut. Saya pindah, sudah menjadi anak yang sedikit lebih baik, dan akhirnya lulus SPMB ke Teknik Industri ITB pada tahun 2007.

Anggi and Her Passion

I love kids, I love fashion, I love many things. Anak-anak dan fashion saya senangi dari dulu hingga sekarang dan tidak pernah berubah. And, the many things, adalah minat saya yang kerap kali berubah dan moody seperti menulis, scrapbooking, membaca, desain, bisnis, dll. Segala minat saya itu walau dalam bentuk yang kecil tetap tercermin di kebiasaan sehari-hari saya saat ini. Hal yang hampir pasti saya lakukan tiap hari adalah blogwalking ke Hot Chocolate and Mint, Cinnamon and Coffee, dan The Crème de La Crop, buka Facebook Levres la Fute Shop (toko online milik saya dan Ocha), corat coret ga jelas, baca majalah, dan main bersama adik kecil saya, Leika.

Mimpi saya adalah bisa menjadi istri yang baik. Itu utamanya. Tapi saya juga ingin menjadi orang kaya. Alhamdulillah kalau suami saya nanti bisa menjadi orang kaya, tapi kita tidak boleh mengandalkan orang lain. Kalau memungkinkan, saya ingin mempunyai bisnis yang besar di bidang fashion sekaligus pernah bekerja di perusahaan-perusahaan besar, hanya untuk mengumpulkan modal dan pengalaman. Saya ingin bekerja di BI atau Unilever. Saya percaya menjadi orang yang berada itu bahagia, mostly bukan dari uang yang kita pakai untuk konsumsi kita sendiri, tapi dari senyum di wajah orang lain karena kita bisa membantu mereka.

Anggi and Her Friends

Saya tidak tahu apakah kemampuan penyesuaian diri saya yang rendah, atau memang saya yang autis, yang menyebabkan saya memiliki pola pertemanan seperti ini. Saya bukan mandiri, tapi saya memang merasa se-ngga apa-apa-itu untuk tidak bersama teman, berbeda dengan karakter beberapa cewek yang justru ke WC aja harus ditemenin. Saya biasa jalan-jalan ke Mall sendiri, belajar sendiri, dll. Saya juga iri melihat teman-teman yang masih akrab dengan teman-teman SMP atau SMAnya. Dengan teman di TI saja saya merasa sebenarnya tidak sedekat itu. Tapi saya sadar sekali kok kalau berteman itu sangat penting dan yang namanya sahabat sangat berarti. Saya hanya tidak punya, dan walaupun iri terhadap yang punya, saya seringkali merasa tidak apa-apa seperti ini. Saya sendiri bukan tipikal orang yang suka main dan nongkrong, jadi kalau syarat persahabatan adalah sering bersama, saya pasti gagal. Saya juga bukan tipe orang yang suka smsan, YMan atau wall-wall an di Facebook, jadi kalau syaratnya sering berkomunikasi, ada kemungkinan besar juga saya gagal. Sialnya lagi, nim saya terpisah sendiri sehingga jarang sekali sekelas dengan teman-teman dekat saya. Jadi makin minim deh interaksi saya dengan mereka. Walau begitu, saya bersyukur karena teman-teman dekat saya sekarang (DOC atau apalah itu) adalah komunitas yang sangat konstruktif. Kebanyakan dari mereka adalah anak rumahan seperti saya, sangat baik hati, pekerja keras, berbakat, dan berambisi mengejar impiannya masing-masing.

Anggi and the Guys

‘Guy things’ juga salah satu hal yang sangat mempengaruhi perkembangan saya hingga sekarang. Pertama kali ditembak cowok, saya masih kelas 1 SD. Saya sendiri baru boleh pacaran ketika kuliah, tapi saya bandel sehingga pacaran pertama kali waktu kelas 1 SMA, dan karena saya hanya ingin coba-coba saja, dan ternyata pacaran tidak seasik itu, saya memutuskan mantan pertama saya pada hari ke 17 pacaran. Barulah mulai pacar ke 2 hingga sekarang, saya cukup serius walaupun saya seringkali menjadi pacar yang sangat merepotkan dan menyebalkan. Banyak teman yang menyebut saya play girl karena sering dekat dengan beberapa cowok sekaligus (saya telah berjanji akan berubah), tapi begitu berpacaran, saya adalah orang yang cukup setia.

Masing-masing dari mantan saya left their own traces. Mereka adalah orang-orang hebat yang mengajarkan banyak hal baik pada saya dan mereka berusaha untuk mengubah saya. Mereka adalah tipikal family-man yang walaupun super sibuk tetap mengutamakan keluarganya. Mereka juga tipikal social-man yang sangat dermawan. Kami pun masih berteman hingga sekarang , and sometimes share our stories. Hanya ada 1 mantan yang tidak begitu, dan saya biarkan tetap begitu karena hati saya tidak sepenuhnya bisa memaafkan dia.

Pacar saya yang sekarang berbeda 180^o dengan mantan-mantan saya, but I can say that he is the most loving person I’ve ever met. Dia bukan tipe cowok impian saya, at all, tapi dia hadiah ulang tahun saya dari Allah yang paling indah. Both of us harus bekerja keras dalam hubungan ini tapi saya sangat bahagia, dan begitu pula yang saya lihat pada dirinya. Saya tahu saya tidak punya apa-apa, tapi dengan ketidakpunyaan ini ternyata saya masih bisa membahagiakan seseorang. Dengan ketidakpunyaan ini pula, he still adores me so much. Saya tidak tahu jodoh saya ada di mana, mungkin dia, mungkin juga bukan. Tapi jika dia orangnya, semoga Allah menjaganya untuk saya dan sebaliknya.

Anggi sekarang

Masa kuliah adalah masa yang paling membentuk diri saya yang stable. Saya tahu dan sudah bisa menerima apa adanya diri saya sendiri yang menyebalkan, pacar yang bukan tipe cowok impian, keluarga yang agak keras dan bukan orang kaya, dan teman dekat yang kadang ngga dekat-dekat amat. Anggi yang sekarang, menurut saya sendiri, tetap anggi yang menyebalkan, gampang menangis, pemberani, sayang keluarga, gemar mencari uang, dan berkomitmen. Saya bangga akan diri saya sendiri, saya bangga akan keluarga saya, saya bangga akan pacar saya, saya bangga akan teman-teman saya, dan saya bangga akan lingkungan saya. Tuhan baik sama saya dan karena itu, saya harus berusaha menjadi orang, anak, kakak, pacar, teman, dan mahasiswi yang lebih baik. Aamiin.

D’Massive

Jangan Menyerah

Tak ada manusia
Yang terlahir sempurna
Jangan kau sesali
Segala yang telah terjadi

Kita pasti pernah
Dapatkan cobaan yang berat
Seakan hidup ini
Tak ada artinya lagi

Syukuri apa yang ada
Hidup adalah anugerah
Tetap jalani hidup ini
Melakukan yang terbaik

Tuhan pasti kan menunjukkan
Kebesaran dan kuasanya
Bagi hambanya yang sabar
Dan tak kenal putus asa

recently found this...haha..so shallow isn't it?

2009-11-30T16:05:00.001+07:00

Essay about Automotive Innovation for Tomorrow

Nowadays, global warming has been a very often topic that we heard in the media. In our daily life, this also can be felt because we often feel that the weather is hotter, earth disaster happened everywhere, and the season change not at the usual schedule as it used to be. No wonder if people want to be more environment-friendly now.

The global warming issue led us to save energy issue. Based on World Energy Report and OPEC Report, our crude oil proven reserve now is 1.195.318 million barrels. If we esteem that the reserve will not be increased until many years to come but our consumption doesn’t decrease or maybe even increase (the world’s oil consumption is 87,1 million barrels per day), so the reserve will not last more than 40 years from now. Mostly the consumption came from transportation and industrial field.

There are two opinions about this: first, we have to make peace with earth, limit our energy consumption, and do all back-to-nature things, second, just go with the flow because sooner or later human will find a way to solve the earth problem also with technology that they will develop as the form of adaptation. Actually, I agree with both opinions. In one side, I agree that we as a human should be more aware to the environment by limiting our energy consumption and use eco-friendly goods and lifestyle, not only for our own convenience these days, but also to sustain the earth for many years to come, in the age of our successor. But in the other side, I also believe that humans are able to use their knowledge to create higher technology that suitable for the environment. For instance, now people develop the use of renewable energy source (wind, solar, geothermal, biomass, and water) in many fields, includes transportation field.

What I think should be the criterion of automotive innovation in the next generation is the eco friendly car. I’m dreaming about electric city car that fueled from solar cells on it. Solar cell system often said as clean, zero emission, and eco friendly energy source because it doesn’t need a booster and doesn’t cause both air and sound pollution. Those advantages are caused by the specific characteristic of solar cell which turns the ray to be electric force straightly. The basic concept is to convert photons from the sun light to be electrons with the used of silicon media (the solar cell) and then the electrons is saved in a storage battery. This system collect the energy in the afternoon and it can be used when there is no sun (when the day cloudy, rain, or at night).

The solar cell has been developed since many years ago but until now we cannot see the solar cars driven in the city. Solar cars did exist, but still used for research and prototype, not for public. Why? It’s because the solar cars still have so much limitations such as the design of the car which often considered ‘strange’ because it has to be made in a certain shape so that it has a wide surface on it to capture the light, small car capacity, very expensive, not suitable to be used in several climate, and low perform. But the good thing is, it is still cheaper than hydrogen fuel cell that is also has zero emission. It is also easier to be charged, especially for us who live in tropic area. The research is still continued and developed and many automotive companies already has their own plan for this kind of car. I believe that there will be a city solar car which relatively not expensive compared to the money we saved from buying gasoline. Moreover, I’m sure the design will be improved so that the solar car can appear like a usual car with enough capacity in it (four or more). Indonesia, which has the sun all year and still deals with economic crisis and high pollution rate in it’s big city really needs this kind of vehicle but of course in cheaper version. In other climate area which sun doesn’t shine all the time, this still a good choice but the storage capacity could stay longer, and maybe in the future the sun shine can be kept in another storage and can be used anytime we need it.

As a person who is not good at driving, I also have another criterion which is the easiest car to ride. The interior, user interface, control function, should be more ergonomics (for example, lighter handbrake), screen that connected to camera attached in the back of the car that will help people to park the car, and also could show warning to the driver when the driver should do maintenance to the car or whether the machine not in the good condition, the speed is too fast or too slow, etc. Beside it will ease drivers like me, it will also help create saver traffic condition.

But, of course we couldn’t fully rely on the scientist or automotive companies to make an eco-friendly means for our life. Everything should be start from now, from ourselves, and from the simplest thing. For example, at driving, we should check whether our car has exceeded the emission limit or not, do save ride, and obey the traffic regulation. And if we according to the global warming and others environment issue, we should apply the eco friendly principle in any aspect of our life.

long time no see, honey

2009-11-29T10:01:00.003+07:00

I wonder why I left this blog for a very long time,,,hhh...

and I wonder, why now I suddenly come here...and decided to write something..

okay, honey...this is already close to end of semester..(so, it has been nearly 6 months ^^)

now I am:

- having 2 online shop: Levres la Fute w/ Ocha,,and Zysku Xena w/ Ridzki
- taking an english course @ TBI Dago, conversation class
- becoming promoter team for AKA to be the next Kahim of my beloved MTI
- in charge of being Secretary of Kembang Desa MTI 2010
- in the preparation of becoming LO IECOM 2010
- in charge of being Secretary of MTI R&D division
- getting used to face failure that never stop to come
- much different.
- much more to tell.

I'm glad that there are u to be my reflection...yeah sometimes people do need to look behind...
I need to know that I've passed something in my life, that I've grown, and become a better person.

so thank u.
thank u.

yesterday I saw New Moon w/ Ridzki

my fav quotes:

"Jake, I love u. So don't make me choose, coz I'll choose him. There's always been him."

Bella

"You know, sometimes, we have to choose love that's good for us."

Charlie

Can I find a man that not only will has always been in my heart but also good for me...?

The things that will never change

2009-07-04T07:01:00.002+07:00

aku akan selalu doain kamu..dan kita..

klw memang kamu yang terbaik buat aku dan sebaliknya...semoga kita berdua akan tetap di sini dan menjadi yang lebih baik untuk satu sama lain..Aamiin.

ilvu.

leaf green

2009-07-03T20:00:00.003+07:00

first of all,,i wanna say sorry for my blog and for anybody who might ever read my blog...coz i realize that this blog actually just been my trash bin.

I put my saddest feeling here..maybe just that. And nothing interesting bout that.

But I also wanna say thanks...Those things i put here,,i don't know where else i should put them.
so,,thanks..thanks a lot.

and now, this is my newest sad feeling:

aku hanya bingung..kepada siapa lg aku bisa berharap?

soundtrack of the day: Hijau Daun, Cobalah
*hahaha,,i never though that i should really listened to their song

Ku coba pahami langit
Kau cobakan lagi pijaki bumi..

silakan lupa, tidak apa-apa.

2009-06-29T00:01:00.003+07:00

I: punten ya lupa diganti...

..............

B: ayng...mvin ak..ak g mksd...ak g ingt sm skali...

..............

kenapa lupa..?

kenapa..?

why..?

..?

.

lupa lupa lupa...
lupa lupa..
lupa..
..

dan disini saya menangis.

Every month i suffered this

2009-06-25T09:05:00.003+07:00

it feels like i wanna roll on the floor again and again, scream, and pull my hair...

my stomach is very very @$$(*&^$#%^##

aarrrrrggghhhhhh!

never mind..this is one of the senses of being a woman.

Jika ITB adalah salah satu universitas terbaik di Indonesia.....maka Indonesia....

2009-06-20T07:17:00.001+07:00

Hari Kamis kemarin anggi dan ridzki menghadiri semacam presentasi yang diadain oleh American Corner Perpustakaan Pusat ITB. Jadi sebenernya ini adalah acara dari US embassy di mana US Embassy mengundang seorang pembicara dari negaranya untuk melakukan presentasi di beberapa universitas terkemuka di Indonesia, dan salah satunya yaitu ITB.

Pembicaranya adalah Dr.Tom P. Abeles (He said he has already been a Professor too, in Chemistry), dia berumur mungkin paling muda 50 tahun, dan dia juga CEO dari Sagacity, Inc, sebuah perusahaan yang bergerak di bidang IT yang menjual produk berupa software-sofware dan juga jasa konsultan IT, dll. Tema presentasinya sendiri yaitu "Information Technology in Higher Education".

Dari caranya bicara dan pengetahuan yang Dr. Tom miliki, terlihat sekali bahwa Beliau adalah orang yang hebat, dan anggi ngerasa beruntung bisa bertemu dia saat itu. Presentasi yang dia bawakan menurut aku sih sangat berguna dan membuka pikiran. Bagus banget kalau banyak mahasiswa dan dosen yang menghadiri acara tsb. Tapi, in fact, hanya ada 4 mahasiswa yang hadir dan sekitar 5 orang adalah dosen, beberapa pegawai fakultas, dan sisanya (kebanyakan)....pegawai perpus, yang hadir -anggi 90% yakin- secara terpaksa karena ngga enak kalau yang hadir sangat sangat sedikit.

Anggi ingat ketika anggi dulu jadi panitia acara seminar, nyari pembicara adalah hal yang sangat krusial dan terkadang sulit, karena kita ingin mendapat pembicara yang hebat, tapi bayarannya murah..heuheu...nah ini, dapet pembicara orang hebat begitu dan gratis, publikasinya hanya berupa SELEMBAR kertas A4 yang ditempel di pintu depan perpus. And Helllooooo, ini lagi libur loh, Bapak, Ibu.....siapa juga yang mau ke perpuus???

Acara dijadwalkan mulai jam 13.30, tapi baru dimulai 15 menit setelahnya karena Dr Tom bilang dia mau nunggu dulu sampai pesertanya agak banyak dan mukanya terlihat agak bete saat itu. Tapi setelah melihat yang datang lagi pun hanya sedikit, maka dengan muka-yang-sudah-ceria-kembali-walau-mungkin-itu-palsu dia pun memulai presentasinya.

Pada awalnya, dia bertanya, "How many students here?" dan tahulah dia bahwa cuma ada 4 orang mahasiswa, but then he said, "Oh, so the rest of you are faculty members." Hahahaa...Pak professor...mereka sebenaranya pegawai perpus...but ya sudahlah. Oke, pada mulanya presentasi yang dihadiri oleh sekitar 25 orang itu berjalan lancar. Hingga akhirnya hp seseorang berbunyi....lalu beberapa menit kemudian hp seseorang yang lain berbunyi....dan hingga akhir...ada 5 kali (minimal) hp berbunyi di ruangan kecil itu. Belum lagi ada 2 orang bapak-bapak yang tidur, dan beberapa orang meninggalkan ruangan sebelum acara berakhir. Semua dosa-dosa itu dilakukan oleh peserta selain mahasiswa -yang tentunya dikira sebagai faculty members oleh Dr Tom-. Semuanya terlihat jelas oleh Dr Tom karena kami duduk setengah lingkaran di ruangan itu, dengan Dr Tom sebagai pusatnya.

FYI, he flew for about 23 hours to Indonesia (sebenernya harusnya ga selama itu sih, tapi karena ada kesalahan teknis bla bla bla jadinya segitu), untuk tidak dihargai oleh apa yang dia pikir salah satu Univ terbaik di Indonesia...

Belum cukup ITB dipermalukan...Jumat kemarin anggi mendaftar ulang les Bahasa Inggris di UPT Bahasa ITB. Saat itu di sana ramai sekali karena sangat banyak orang yang ingin mendaftar TOEFL karena diperlukan untuk syarat kelulusan. Orang yang sebanyak itu, dilayani sama sekali tanpa antrian...pegawainya yang hanya 2 orang kelabakan...sampai-sampai seorang tamu yang ingin bertemu dengan director UPT Bahasa melihat hal tersebut dengan kebingungan karena dia pun jadi agak teracuhkan. Kemudian, anggi tahu bahwa dia adalah tamu dari Jepang. Institut TEKNOLOGI Bandung...sebelah mana teknologinya?

Hmmm...ngga aneh kalau pandangan orang luar seringkali sangat-sangat jelek kepada orang Indonesia...karena kita sendiri kok yang nunjukin itu kepada dunia...mungkin saat presentasi Dr Tom, anggi termasuk peserta yang bersikap baik, tapi sebenarnya di kehidupan sehari-hari anggi juga memalukan, seandainya para foreigners itu melihat...

Dipikir-pikir...ngga usah muluk bercita-cita ingin memajukan bangsa dengan cara yang BESAR..dengan cara sederhana...bersikap baik selayaknya manusia normal pun sebenernya bisa memberikan nilai lebih untuk negara dan bangsa kita yang tercinta ini...

The End of Semester

2009-06-16T19:47:00.001+07:00

Banyak surprise yg tidak menyenangkan...
tapi tetep Alhamduliilaaaah ^^

come on.

2009-06-06T06:05:00.002+07:00

everything can be the same,
but in fact they're made different to each other.

i don't want to be the same,
but just to be different and complete each other, that's what I think we are.

and hey, why I was so surprised that u're different from me, from people close to me..
why I was so...disappointed...to know that u are...
u?

U, from the land of nowhere, from the part of almost-falling-ness
U, from the gang of thieves (if I were Jasmine, so u were Aladdin)
U, from the gang of gambler (if I were Rose, so u were Jack)
U, I know U.

If u are different, then I'll try to change a part of u that should be changed for ur own good.
I don't know whether u're gonna hate me or not.
I don't know...anything.

but I love u.
and Jasmine lives happily ever after with Aladdin,
and although Jack died, Rose loves him till the end of her life.

a drop of love.

2009-06-04T22:45:00.002+07:00

For the first time in my life...
I shed a tear in my prayer, because I feel so grateful that I have someone..
someone who I'm sure that he's the best for me..
Alhamdulillahirabbil'aalamiin...

getting near to the end of semester

2009-06-01T18:50:00.002+07:00

Alhamdulillahirabbil'aalamiin...
All the exams and presentations are done!!!^^

but there are still things to do:
-help ridzki typing the task from Mr Budi (should be done tonight)
-(maybe) manufacturing process practicum additional task (should be done tomorrow, I think..but I still don't get the task from Ka Aryo yet))
-IOP task from Mr Dadi (should be done wednesday)
-Kadwil (tomorrow and the day after)

T_T

can't wait to feel the real holiday..

let me plan my holiday!

mmm....financial team INKM...oh gosh, still not a holiday yet...

mmm...play w/ ridzki and leika is a must!!
---before ridzki go to East Java to do his internship for about 3 weeks---

and then...driving course..continue my english course..

and then...dunno..do u have any idea?

I REALLY WANT TO HAVE A HOLIDAY!!!

syayallaaaaa ^^

2009-05-30T01:28:00.001+07:00

this late, and my eyes still open..

introduction to ergonomy, would u be my close friend???
yayaya? ^^

good news...MTI is running again now,,

Disappointed and Relieved

2009-05-28T19:58:00.002+07:00

One more to come..^^
prosman and OR are done!
not really good, actually..
T_T

ya Allah...berikanlah yang terbaik untuk hamba-Mu..
Amiin..

Heuheuheu

2009-05-24T03:36:00.003+07:00

I'm sorry that I post again..:D

because I know I wont post again until...1st of June maybe...

anyway, my responsibility report is done ^^, i should email it but the connection is very lame so it'll take a long time to attach it.

i wanna sleep again and wake up tomorrow morning to....
study. what else?

eh, ridzki online...i wanna chat w/ him before i go to bed.

c ya.

Gomenasai

2009-05-24T02:49:00.002+07:00

What I thought wasn't mine
In the light
Wasn't one of a kind,
A precious pearl
When I wanted to cry
I couldn't cause I
Wasn't allowed

Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought wasn't all
So innocent
Was a delicate doll
Of porcelain

When I wanted to call you
And ask you for help
I stopped myself
Gomenasai for everything
Gomenasai, I know I let you down
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

What I thought was a dream
A mirage
Was as real as it seemed
A privilege
When I wanted to tell you
I made a mistake
I walked away
Gomenasai, for everything
Gomenasai, Gomenasai,
Gomenasai,
I never needed a friend,
Like I do now
Gomenasai, I let you down
Gomenasai, Gomenasai,
Gomenasai till the end
I never needed a friend
Like I do now

t.A.T.u

*.still in the making of my responsibility report.*

btw, the next morning (which is 3 hours from now) will be the same day as the days before, study and study..
no wasting time, i promise my self..hhh T_T

Beautiful Day ^^

2009-05-23T05:58:00.003+07:00

It's so relieving when Industrial Statistics final exam has been done yesterday and Manufacturing Process's final assignment has been submitted...hhh....

last night I slept for about 9 hours! yipppeee yayayayaiii....

beutiful Saturday today...heuheuheu,,,

but...I have to make my responsibility report for KSEP (deadline,tomorrow sunday)
and my schedule for next week:

Monday:
-tanoto foundation's scholarship candidates interview
-the grade for Manufacturing Process Practicum will be published, and probably Engineering Economy will be too
-I think I should make an appointment w/ my friends in KSEP to talk about the LPJ
-study

Tuesday:
-English conversation course oral test
-full study.

Wednesday:
-Industrial and Organizational Phsycology Final Exam
-If my Engineering Economy grade is bad, I should take the final exam (hope not! amiin)
-study hard for tomorrow T_T

Thursday:
-Manufacturing Process final exam
-Operational Research I final exam

Friday:
...?

Saturday:
-KSEP's responsibility report trip to Ciwidey ^^

Sunday:
still in Ciwidey.

Monday:
-Introduction to Ergonomy final exam...
so I think I should study before my trip to Ciwidey.

Good Luck for My self!!!
*and for you all too^^*

Rabbizidnii ilma, warzuqnii fahmaa birahmatika yaa arhamarraahimmiiin..
Amiiin.

Ps:
My dear blog, i'm sorry that it seems i will leave for more than a week again.

Heloooooooooooo

2009-05-15T03:40:00.001+07:00

I'm sorry that I was leaving this blog for a week (again!),,

there are so many many final assignments to do and tomorrow will be the 1st final exam in this semester which is Calculus III..hhh...

And I was just already finished my assignments for this week (there's still an assignment to be submitted at 22nd of May)...and I haven't prepare myself for tomorrow's exam at all!!

OMG OMG OMG OMG OMG!!

untitled

2009-05-07T02:54:00.003+07:00

hari ini rasanya sakiit bgt.

sampai2 aku ga peduli lagi sama tikus yang daritadi bolak balik di dapur dengan jarak 2 meter dari kursi tempat aku duduk.

soalnya aku sibuk nangis. dan nulis ini.

CENGENG!!!!

tapi gimana??

kecewa bgt rasanya...ya sama diri sendiri...ya sama org lain...

klw kaya gini emang lebih baik aku diem. ga usah jadi apa2. ga usah ngomong apa2. ga usah ngapa2in. zero defect. zero waste.

Ya Allah...Anggi pengen pergi...ke mana aja...

Anggi pengen pergi..g mw di sini lagi...

Anggi cape...cape bgt...

The Heritage Lovers Jumper

2009-05-05T22:20:00.004+07:00

HHHHHAAPPPPPYYYYYY

We've got a pair of couple jumper! ^^

And the best thing is...

we inherit the jumper from Rizki's parents...hihihi...cooo cuiiiit, isn't it??

*we still have more photos wearing the jumper together*

I'm back. (with bad news)

2009-05-05T18:09:00.002+07:00

It has been a week I didn't post anything here,,,All the big assignment is start killing me...:(

So many things happened...MTI IS SUSPENED...it's because...ah panjang ceritanya, males nyeritain di sini.

but i'm quite relieved (ssttt ...) because that means I have one thing less in my mind. I think now there are many more important things to think about beside MTI.

And...

I dont know...I'm just not in the mood today.

Indah...

2009-04-29T11:22:00.005+07:00

Pilihanku
Maliq & D Essentials

Berjuta rasa rasa yang tak mampu diungkapkan kata-kata
Dengan beribu cara-cara kau selalu membuat ku bahagia
Kau adalah alasan dan jawaban atas semua pertanyaan
Yang benar-benar kuinginkan hanyalah kau untuk selalu di sini ada untukku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang selalu ada di saat pagi ku membuka mata

Oh..
Ijinkan aku memilikimu, mengasihimu, menjagamu, menyayangimu,
memberi cinta
memberi semua yang engkau inginkan
selama aku mampu aku akan berusaha
mewujudkan semua impian dan harapan
tuk menjadi kenyataan

Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang slalu ada di saat pagi ku membuka mata

Jadilah yang terakhir
Tuk jadi yang pertama
Tuk jadi selamanya...

Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang selalu ada di saat pagi ku

Maukah kau tuk menjadi pilihanku
Menjadi yang terakhir dalam hidupku
Maukah kau tuk menjadi yang pertama
Yang selalu ada di saat pagi ku membuka mata

Jadilah yang terakhir
Tuk jadi yang pertama
Tuk jadi selamanya....

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lagu ini adalah hal indah pertama yang saya dengar hari ini. Video klipnya adalah hal indah pertama yang saya lihat hari ini. Have u seen the video clip? It's one of my favourite video.

tapi teman, everything is not that simple. Untuk sampai ke sana....a very long road to go.
Should I predict now? Because I'm not sure whether I should go along the road or not. Maybe I should back off, or turn, I don't know.
I'm afraid.
Afraid.

knapa semuanya ga membaik. ilang satu masalah dateng satu masalah lagi.

?ada orang di sana?

2009-04-29T06:37:00.004+07:00

bingung

bingung

sampai kapan

bingung

ingin

tapi ga ingin

bingung

tolol

ternyata benar

dari awal

sendiri dan tidak dimengerti

sendiri

aneh

freak.

mengerti tapi bingung

Count your Blessing (Instead of Sheep)

2009-04-28T10:47:00.002+07:00

When I'm worried and I can't sleep
I count my blessings instead of sheep
And I fall asleep counting my blessings
When my bankroll is getting small
I think of when I had none at all
And I fall asleep counting my blessings

I think about a nursery and I picture curly heads
And one by one I count them as they slumber in their beds
If you're worried and you can't sleep
Just count your blessings instead of sheep
And you'll fall asleep counting your blessings

I think about a nursery and I picture curly heads
And one by one I count them as they slumber in their beds
If you're worried and you can't sleep
Just count your blessings instead of sheep
And you'll fall asleep counting your blessings

Diana Krall

simply inspiring...^^

There's always be an Alhamdulillah for having u here.

2009-04-27T19:36:00.006+07:00

This is one point that I feel like life is so tiring. It's just like u punch a pillow, u give so much power to it, but nothing happened.

But you see others maybe ever feel worse than you. Then u realize that if a metal that u've punched, it will be more hurts.

So you still alive then. Be grateful.
It's just the way it is.

Darling, I'll be with you through these. And I hope my existence will make u feel better. Like u've done to me.

Suddenly accepting bad things that come to me is easier.
Maybe God has already trained me well ^^, and He gave me you, a mean for keeping myself strong.
I thank You, God.

*it's funny that both of us became so unlucky today*

you put smile back on my face :)

saking kerennya...

2009-04-26T10:44:00.003+07:00

"I am quick, sharp, and ready for assertive, revolutionary or affirmative action. I overcome obstacles or resolve conflict by getting right to the point, cutting to the chase or confronting challenges head on -- even if this means going against the grain. My communication, style or expectation is on the cutting edge and relies on reason, design, the latest craze or facts. It is my honor to protect and defend my perception of truth. I measure twice and cut once. I am empowered by expectation or duty and my virtue is commitment to the greater good."

again, let go.

2009-04-25T18:25:00.006+07:00

Sekali-sekali pk bahasa ah...agak aneh rsanya...oo berarti english aku udah improved...good symptoms ^^,,,

Hmmm...tadinya aku mw curhat-curhat (includes opini ttg somethin di MTI) di sini tapi setelah mencoba menulis beberapa paragraf ternyata aku ga nyaman nulis hal2 begituan di sini...

I'm more comfortable if I just write my feelings or experience.

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The power I've given to let go is as big as the power I've given to pursue,,,

And now, maybe (if I'm not mistaken) it's the third times in my life I've to let go things that I wanted and loved so much.

#1 Early 2008

Everybody has known that I'd love to be at Marching Band so much (that time). I was glad to be there although I had to go home late often and I've put my whole heart to do everything I've to do there, even more.

But I was also had many things to do beside that. There were another organizations and family things...
And the hardest thing I've to realize is :
I'm not good at music at all.

I've to spend much more time than my friends to reach a note and to read a song.
I've to spend much more time than my friends to walk in the right way.
Often I had private lesson from my friends there, and it was mentally tiring because u've been the stupidest person there.

Those times I felt very stressed.

And I cried, tell my mom bout that. And taraaaa.....I decided to resign. out. stop.
Some of my friends there also cried, and it was the 1st time I know what a friendship of short time could be.

MBWG (Marching Band Waditra Ganesha) is truly the greatest place to make friends.

Then the hardest thing to see and hear is when u see and hear their sound, their performance, without u there, with them. There's u, though, but at the audience's seat.

But time passes by, and one thing I know now, it was a right choice. There's absolutely not my place and I wouldn't become like I am now if I stayed.

Alhamdulillah,,U have shown me the right way.

#2 middle 2008

It's a boy and love things, and I don't want to write about that here. But it was hard, so hard.
Still in the end finally I can get over this,,and I respect him, just like a person as gorgeous, but as j*** as him deserved to be respected.

There's no more hate. Everything that should be left behind and better left unspoken, I've accepted that.

It's a very good lesson for both of us. ^^

#3 now

Hhhh....Should I write about this?

I won't be BPA MTI candidate.

Again, I should realize that my condition won't enable me to be what I wanted to be.

But, the harder thing is that I know that I'm suitable for the role, simply feel that I can and ready enough for it.

It's like u have to throw something u've wanted for a long time, and it's already in your hand.

I have so much vision about being a good BPA, BPA who could make a change in MTI. if I write all my dream about BPA here, I think this would be a very long posting ^^

Buat temen2 yang mau jadi BPA...kalau kalian kepilih...jadilah BPA yang mampu terjun langsung membantu massa, memberikan pertimbangan dan kontrol seluas dan sedalam mungkin, berdasarkan aspirasi yang menyeluruh yang dititipkan pada kalian dan juga kemampuan problem solving kalian sendiri. Jangan hanya di belakang layar. Massa perlu merasa bahwa mereka punya BPA. Buktikan pada sistem, bahwa satu elemen bernama BPA, memang diperlukan dan dapat membantu keberjalanan sistem tersebut.

BPA harus dikenal massa, BPA harus mampu menjadi teladan, BPA harus peduli terhadap massa.

BPA mempunyai posisi sejajar kahim, dan power itu ada, untuk membuat suatu perubahan dibandingkan apabila power itu tidak ada, dengan disediakannya power itu, diharapkan added value yang kalian berikan juga dapat lebih terasa.

Jangan takut apabila kalian orang yang biasa2 saja, karena asal kemauan itu ada (untuk belajar, untuk peduli, untuk berpikir, untuk berkontribusi, dan sebagainya, which still a bunch, a big home work for u) maka kalian bisa jadi luar biasa dan menjadi BPA yang hebat*. tapi jangan juga kalian sampai tidak tahu diri. Menjadi BPA itu tugas yang berat, dan bukan sekedar keprofesionalan dalam menjalankan tugas yang diperlukan di sini, melainkan juga ke-proaktif-an, kepekaan, sense of belonging terhadap posisi kalian sendiri dan MTI, dan masih banyak lagi.

Aspirasi. Pertimbangan. Kontrol.

sungguh tugas yang tidak terbatas untuk dieksplor.
sungguh kesempatan yang sangat besar untuk berbuat.
sungguh posisi yang SEHARUSNYA sangat penting bagi MTI.

semangat kawan!!
aku tunggu setahun lagi, untuk tidak lagi mendengar dan bertanya:

-BPA mana? ko kebanyakan ga dateng?
-BPA siapa aja?
-Ko dia ga pernah keliatan?
-Ko panpel ga diurusin?
-Ko yang nongol itu-itu aja?
-Ko proker dan visi kaya gitu dibiarin?
-Ko divisinya kaya gini tapi BPAnya ga keliatan ikut rapat?
-Ko cuma bikin kuesioner aja?
-dan lagi-lagi saya harus bilang, masih banyak lagi.

ini aspirasi dari saya
-seorang massa MTI yang pernah ingin berkontribusi, lewat menjadi BPA-

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and...back to the topic about 3 things that I should let go in my life...
there r also things that I will never let go:

-my faith
-my family
-ridzki
-my sense of ambition and achievement

God, I know that U always keep something better for me ahead.
I'll find it.

*buat ka mecen, makasi untuk obrolannya yang mampu memberi pandangan baru buat aku,,,sori ya kata2nya dipinjem hehehe,,,

Announcement

2009-04-22T16:36:00.003+07:00

Often I want to write an important (kind of opinion, argumentative essay, intellectual) things, but I stuck at using proper English to speak up my mind. So, like u've seen, I always write shallow and narrow things here.

Then I've decided to make new rule for myself in writing this blog.

Daily things = english
hard-to-write-in-english things = might be Indonesian

Once I saw an author's motto in his book.

"RIGHT or WRONG, write it!!
English is not our mother's tongue"

But the book is written in Bahasa.
Haha.

RA, will u be held?

2009-04-20T20:01:00.005+07:00

We only have 150 out of 191 people.

Nope.

I just can't understand.

So when?

but the BPA still insist on continuing the presentation, although it doesn't counted as RA. Then for what?

Then our ex-Kahim suggest us to continue the forum (not the RA of course) to evaluate the mistakes and decide when the next RA will be held. Hhhhh.

A Very Really Absolutely Amazing MTI Graduation Night Party!!!

2009-04-19T12:46:00.013+07:00

Yesterday is my university April Graduation Day. Like my any other friends (from TI 07), I was also became the committee. I just wanna share the report, happiness, and proudliness to you all ^^

Day session

Like usual, year to year, I became Liaison Officer (LO) ^^. There were no problem after all. Except our difficulty to make ourselves 'visible' to the scholar's parents. That was because MTI didn't make it's rows among the crowd yet. Hhhh...And the ITB and KM's committee, come on! What about ur rules that we try to obeyed? U opened all the doors after all..It made us difficult to keep an eye of the parents who went out of the room. FYI, we just have 5 parents LO.

And there was so crowded that many himpunan are pushing each other (it's an usual thing that occurred in front of the main gate of Sabuga when we were waiting for the scholars went out) til suddenly a few guys of GEA and MTI fought. There was no victim but one of MTI's hurted and has to be stitched.

Mmmm...the Avanti wasn't so nice that the circle was too big so we didn't make a loud voice (And Agam as Kahim once mistaken when he told us to start the Avanti).

I don't know about the parade because as the parent's LO I have to stay in seminar room with the parents. And what I saw there is rather relieving, though. The parents (although I know they must be bored waiting) seemed happy when they saw their kids did the balloon-releasing and water war. Many of them were busy to take picture or video of their kids and also threw water balloons from the upstairs. ^^

I'm glad to see the smile on their face. :)

Night Session

I came with Ridzki (I know that u already guessed it) and he was very tidy ^^. The party took place at Singapore International School (SIS) and the room is bright, wide, neat, and I definitely prefer SIS than Altim in ITB. The decoration was just barely enough to give a sense of "Circus", because it was the theme.

The party should be started at 7.30 but because the scholars didn't come yet, we delayed the opening but there was band in the stage (2007's band, Agil cs, very melting voice as usual, good job, fella!) and we already allowed to eat.

At about 08.30, the show finally officially started with an amazing opening act! There were clowns juggling, dolls dance, balloons, bubbles, and it was damn wonderful,,,^^
After that we also have performances from each year class. First, 2007 gave us very cute and funny STOMP Percussion, and in my opinion, it was the best 2007's performance until now.
Then we have musical drama from 2005, mmmmm.....whoa....I don't know what to say, It was professional, gorgeous, amazing, and...I'm just speechless. The drama is titled BHMNRHPSDY (Bohemian Rhapsody) and it was participated by about 50 people from 2005. After 2005, we have Saman Dance from 2006, it was cute and professional too, mostly K'Mechen who sang the Saman Song, her voice even deserve to fill the Lord of the Ring soundtrack I think,,^^

Oh yeah, Our Head of Department, Mr Tota with his family, Mrs Rajesri and Mr Kadarsyah (both are our lecturer) still here until that late (it was the first time in MTI's Graduation Night Party I guess).

The show still continued but I have to go home. I really appreciate that night, well done friends! I'm proud of you all!
For MTI's people, I also really appreciate ur participation.
And last but not least, for the scholars, Congratulation!!!

Photo taken by Dewi

Ocha and Yayu was going to performed the Dolls Dance ^^ Cute!

Photo taken by Dhila

Avanti MTI alaris scorsca, pre siempre viva, pre siempre viva....

Pici pici bla bla hu hu hu ha ha

2009-04-17T17:03:00.006+07:00

Today Ridzki cooked special fried instant noodles for me!!! ^^

Yeah, it's instant but it's sooo special (for me),,,Actually I'm the one who told him how to cook a special fried noodles.

First, u should boil the noodles like usual, but then u have to fry it with other ingredients and all the seasonings.

And he wrote me a song too. hihihi,,,

here it is:

It’s been a while…

It’s been a while of my life, I live with the one that I’ve never met before…

The one who could bring the sunlight, overcoming the cold dusk…

It’s been a while of my life, I share my laugh and smile with you anggi…

The one who could change most of the things in my life…

We live this life full of love, even when we’re not being together…

We share every story of our days with laugh and happiness…

I mention your name always in my prayer…

Your voice even could cease the storm in my deepest heart…

It’s been a while of my life, I pray to God in so many times… it’s all about you…

The one who I always give my love, care, smile, and everything-I-have to…

And it’s been a while of my life, I’ve decided to share my life with you…

Until my time in this world is up, until I can even spell my own name well…

It’s been a while of my life, I love somebody nonstop, even in my sleep…

Cause I don’t want to loosen my love and care to you…

I don’t want to share my life with other people, except you, even just for a while in my life…

08.04.09

Full loaded with love…

Your arradian

Happy!!!

Up and Down, Like a Wheel

2009-04-17T08:05:00.009+07:00

Knowing someone is loving u more than anything is wonderful.

Knowing that Allah will be always by your side even though sometime u've forgot Him is relieving.

Knowing that there will always be a home for u after all that u've faced outside is simply delightful.

And so here I am. Still in my whole package, inside and outside.

Alhamdulillaah...

It has been a few days that I didn't post any photo here (I bet no one waiting for it, though,,,^^)

Life is like a wheel, sometimes u're up and sometimes u're down.
and one thing that I've learned from it is that even the luckiest man in the world should try his best to reach whatever he wants.

Thanks to Ms. Lucy (one of my English teacher) that has shown the class the movie 'Just My Luck'.

Btw, 'Just My Luck' is an idiom that means 'Apes Gw!' bukan 'cuma hoki gw aja'.

"Luck is relative -- still, I choose wisely and am not alone. When I envision, expect and choose great things, I will identify, pursue, and experience great things. I keep my options open and acknowledge emotional clutter or unrealistic expectations. I am empowered by desire for meaning and my gift is opportunity or epiphany. "

Carpe diem!

PS: I'm curious about the tarot reading. It was totally not a prophecy. Why they could always give nice advice, inspiring either? I just love it.

I love u all. Everytime.

2009-04-16T19:02:00.003+07:00

No matter how deep it hurts,
No matter how far I fall,

God..please give me strength..
At least just to smile..

The sky was grey for her part II

2009-04-15T15:26:00.002+07:00

I met her again then

She changed her clothes with grey.

but there was a smile back in her face.

^^

The sky was grey for her

2009-04-15T10:32:00.003+07:00

I saw a sweet girl passed by in front of me
She's so sweet
And full of pink

There was a smile in her face
It was so sweet
And full of warmth

I wonder that she must be very happy that day
Even the sun was also happy to see her
that the day was so bright

And so did I.

Then I forgot about the girl and went to the rest room.
inside, I saw her, cried without a sound. Just tears on her cheeks.

My Laptop is a Good Photographer

2009-04-15T05:16:00.006+07:00

Yesterday I came late to Mr.Icel class (Introduction to Human Factors) so I didn't come in, and I decided to go to KSEP. But I didn't bring the key, and Mba Tami who's work at KSEP always come by 10am. And it was 07.30. T_T

I still went to KSEP, and in front of the headquarter, I did a-self-photo session with my laptop (Yes I know I'm freak). The quality of the picture is bad because it's only 1.3 MP. But here they are:

I even made this photo as the profile picture in my FB.

At 06.30-08.00 pm I have an English Course at UPT Bahasa ITB. Ridzki picked me up and after that we have dinner at Warung Pasta and we had a really good time there, we did share a bunch of laugh ^^

But we didn't take any photo of us. Stupid.

But...why Ridzki could pick me up? He must be at RA MTI to do his responsibility report as BPA? I also planned to attend the RA after I had the class.

----the RA was dismissed----

why? why?

----Because we didn't fulfill the quorum----

how many?

----there were only 40 something people came to RA from 200 something that should come----

What's wrong with MTI?????

Jason Mraz - Make it Mine

2009-04-14T06:27:00.000+07:00

Wake up everyone
How can you sleep at a time like this
Unless the dreamer is the real you
Listen to your voice
The one that tells you to taste past the tip of your tongue
Leap and the net will appear

I don't wanna wake before
The dream is over
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes i... I'll own it
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes I'll make it all mine

I keep my life on a heavy rotation
Requesting that it's lifting you up
Up up and away
And over to a table at the Gratitude Caf

And I am finally there
And all the angels they'll be singing
Ah la la la ah la la la I la la la la love you

I don't wanna break before
The tour is over
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes i...I'll own it
I'm gonna make it mine
Yes I'll make it all mine

And timing's everything
And this time there's plenty
I am balancing
Careful and steady
And reveling in energy that everyone's emitting

I don't wanna wait no more
No I wanna celebrate the whole world
I'm gonna make it mine
Because I'm following your joy
I'm gonna make it mine
Because I... I am open
I'm gonna make it mine
that's why I will show it
I'm gonna make it all mine
It's mine...
Yes I will make it all mine

*good morning people!*
have a nice day! I'm sure I will!

Again, unimportant.

2009-04-13T22:13:00.000+07:00

My class was over at 06.30pm. so tiring...yeah, after the long weekend...

Because of that freak Industrial and Organizational Psychology schedule from 5-6.30,,I couldn't attend two meetings: Graduation Day Liaison Officer, and Tim Materi IECOM....both of them are important though...

I found a broken umbrella in my Calculus III classroom.
Photo taken by Rika

I went home after I took the maghrib prayer. Before we (I went home with Ridzki) get home, we stopped at Beurgeur (Tubagus Ismail) because I felt so hungry and I was a kind of burger 'ngidam'. I ordered cheese burger with double mozarella. Yummy!

At home, my grandma gave me my childhood favourite cake, Marzapane (did I spell it right?) from Rasa Bakery & Cafe
Hihihi....^^

.....
but there are things that made me feel not good today.
I just can say...

Being ambitious is sucks.
It makes you hate others and yourself sometime.

Nite.

....

2009-04-13T10:07:00.000+07:00

09.15 am
My lecturer is sick today...so the class is dismissed.
Hhh...My next class is Industrial Statistics at 12am.
I don't bring my laptop and there isn't any task to do.
So what should I do now????

.....
.....
.....

thinking.

There's Ridzki beside me, but he has class at 10am.

Oh, I hope Mr. Darwin will get well soon.

10.00 am
Aha! I'll go to Comlabs. Maybe Ocha and Amel are still there (because at 9.00 they were there).
....
But when I've got there, they've already gone.
...
So here I am. In front of one of Comlabs's computer, writing my blog again even though there's nothing interesting to be written.

*I'm currently listening to ST12'S song from Comlabs's speaker (It's played over and over again,hhh).

I'm also facebook-ing and checking my email inbox...but there's nothing important.

Arrgh...I'm getting bored.

10.30 am
OMG...Actually I have something to do!
I have to go to KSEP (Economy and Capital Market Study Group) headquarter to list the books there to make catalogue. That's my division's last work program and it has to be done this week, or at least before the end of this month, because next month we will present our responsibility report.

I'd better go now.

Good Night

2009-04-12T23:07:00.000+07:00

I can't get to sleep...although I know that I'm already sleepy and tomorrow morning I'll start study again...hoahm...this long weekend finally end..

Ridzki told me that he wants to call me when he get home, so I'll just waiting for him. Now he's at Ngopi Doeloe with his band. (Later I'll tell u about the band, they're good guys and I love their songs!^^). It's a routine activity for them after they'd practiced in the studio.

My body doesn't feel well..maybe it's because yesterday-all-night-teaching at SSC. OMG,,I really want to sleep...T_T

Ridzki...please go home soon...

But hey, I'm also looking at my Yahoomail inbox and there's a mail contains tarot reading for me. Actually I don't believe in prophecy, tarot, etc but I found the message is rather interesting and general.

The card suggest that:

"I will not let myself be limited, paralyzed, held hostage or alienated by fear or fantasy that relies on exploitive emotional rescue, sacrifice of truth, or victimization. I will not be a prisoner to my own perceptions or expectations. Why did Cinderella stay? Do I want to be right or alone? Why have I placed a mental gag order on my own suffering or thinking? I am empowered to question or endure by virtue of my own self-worth because there is no honor in sacrificing my self to victimhood."

Whew..what a good words.

Okay, c u tomorrow. I'll continue waiting.

Our Saturday Night was....

2009-04-12T09:55:00.000+07:00

Last night Ridzki and I were together since 6pm until 5am this morning.

But not dating. (yeah, I know it's Saturday night).

And now, it's already 10 am and I've just woke up. (But I've been sleeping only since 6.30 am so I'm not that sleepyhead)

So, what were we doing last night?

We were teaching High School Maths in SSC (Sony Sugema College) for the preparation of National Final Exam that will be held next week. Haha. FYI, in SSC there's a program called 'Malam Lesehan Matematika' that the students were given more than 100 Maths problems to be solved. And the program is from 7pm until 4am the next morning. So my responsibility is to assist the students solving the problems

.

The students in my class.

My class consists of about 20 students. Surprise for me, they are so smart and diligent! When the first time I entered the room, they've already started to answer the problems. And I just have them did 20 numbers in 30 minutes and then ask them whether there are problems that cannot be solved. Like that regularly. So we've done all the problems at 01.30 and after all, I've just explained approximately 20 numbers in front of the class. I gave all the key to them, and they could solve it by themselves.

Poor Ridzki, he has 40-student-class and the students asked him to explain number by number. So they've done at 3am, and it was just until number 80. Oh, and that was his first time teaching.

So, after he was done with his class, we went to Circle K to have some coffee and snacks.

eat Kinder Bueno makes the coffee taste bitter

30 random things about me

2009-04-11T02:50:00.002+07:00

I think before I tell you more pieces of my life later, I should let you know more about myself.

The eldest kid in my family
Have 16-year-old brother named Raya and 3-year-old sister named Leika.
An Industrial Engineering Bandung Institute of Technology student.
Spent my whole life in Bandung.
Really afraid of mice.
Wearing veil since my last year in junior high school.
Have a boyfriend named Muhammad Ridzki Fakhreza (u can call him Ridzki or Bams).
Have girl-friends called D.O.C (it's just us calling ourselves). We're 13 girls in the same major, and have the same hometown which is our beloved Bandung.
Cheese and peach lover, but I love eat, actually.
Inspired by Diana Rikasari's blog.
Love to play Polyvore.
Love to make scrapbooks.
Have a big passion for fashion.
Don't like un-Industrial Engineering lessons such as Calculus, Physics, Chemistry, etc.
Now striving to get a scholarship and a chance to go abroad.
Never go abroad. Poor me.
Don't like to attend classes. I prefer study by myself or taught by someone who I consider smarter than me in that field privately.
Lame..smart...lame...smart...lame...Am I smart? or lame? Sometimes I can be each of them in an extreme way.
Love organizational activity.
Ironically, I'm not an organized person.
Sooo...forgetful.
Very easy to shed a tear.
Have 4 ex bf. And I think that's already enough. ^^
height:160 cm. Weight: I won't tell u :)
Have new hobby which is take photograph with Ridzki.
Some people think that I'm childlish, but the others think that I'm mature and wise.
Think that responsible is an important value to be kept. In any aspect of life.
Very eager to learn English. (According to my wish to go abroad).
Have so much smile in a day ^^.
Will be glad if u want to leave any comment in my blog.

Me and Ridzki
photo taken by Ocha

D.O.C.
photo edited by Dhila

Me and Leika

Hello...I'm new here!

2009-04-10T06:47:00.000+07:00

I didn't have any blog until yesterday...but there are some blogs that I routinely read and last night suddenly making blog came to my mind...and here it is...Autism Contemplation...!

Why Autism Contemplation? Dunno...that name also suddenly appeared in my head...but maybe I have an autism side that I often go everywhere by myself and study alone when my girl-friends (my friends, they are girls) even don't wanna walk alone...and need someone (or more) to study together with them...So when people see me walk or study alone (even eat alone sometimes),,,maybe they think that I'm a kind of autism,,,,but no,,,,though I admit that, deep inside I called it independent :)
and I really hold on a tenet that u don't have to wait another to walk ahead. it's sounds so individual yeah?
But maybe later u'll find another side of me. Later.

Then...in the time without anyone besides me...I often have a contemplation, and I consider it's good for me...I got more time to think, to feel, to learn... and now, maybe to continue write this blog ^^

But it doesn't mean that what I'll post here is the content of my contemplation..it can be...just...anything,,,

nb: I won't always use English in my posting, it's just depend on my mood.